Dream Journal 1/30/19 | Jenna Marbles

I was lying down on my couch, watching a Jenna Marbles YouTube video on the TV in the living room. The video started as a vlog, which she was recording from the passenger seat of her car, while her boyfriend, Julien, drove her to the hospital. In the video, her hair was messy and disheveled, and she looked haggard and tired, with red eyes, as if she had been crying. She talked about how she was on her way to a rehab center, and how she has been feeling really overwhelmed lately, and had been struggling for a long time, and had tried hard to not let it show.

The dream suddenly turned into more of a movie, where I could not see myself in the scenes that were unfolding, but it was like I watching everything play out, as though I was there, from a first person POV. Jenna and Julien walked into the hospital, with Jenna still vlogging, and she started breaking down, and crying, as soon as they walked in. A couple nurses rushed over to help her, and she started turning violent, and thrashing around. Julien started crying then, and another nurse appeared to talk to him. Someone walked over to “me”, and told me to put my camera away, and suddenly, the view switched to the floor, as though I panned the camera down.

There was another young woman in a wheelchair that started calling Jenna’s name, and asking her why she was there. She looked like a fan, and was happy to see her, but her face looked horrified when she realized what was happening. She took out her phone, and started recording, and Julien yelled at her to stop, but she ignored him. The nurses, and what appeared to be a few doctors, carried a still screaming Jenna out of the hall, and we could hear her yelling even after she was far away.

The “camera” kind of swung around, like “I” was trying to sneakily record the surroundings inside the hospital, but mostly all that was recorded was feet. Julien was telling the nurse that Jenna had been acting irrationally, and had started drinking and taking pills, and the nurse said something about admitting her…

And then, I woke up.


Author: Super Jan

I'm just an introvert, trying to find where I fit in the world. Opinionated, slightly vulgar, and prone to crippling social anxiety. I am a casual gamer, retired podcaster, wannabe voice actor, newbie freelancer, Netflix binge-watcher, YouTube addict, and a mom just trying my best.

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