Hello, friends. For today’s blog, I thought I would share with you a few of my guilty pleasures, specifically, the current gaming apps that I’ve been playing on my phone. Continue reading My Gaming Apps: Vol. 1
Clicker Heroes, you guys. Clicker Heroes.
For those of you who have never heard of this game, you probably don’t have a Steam account. If you do have a Steam account, and still have never heard of Clicker Heroes, then you probably hate amazing, addicting, free games, and WHO ARE YOU?
You actually do not need a Steam account to play this game, though that is how I downloaded it and I recommend going there to see all of the videos and images of the game, but you can also play it directly on the Clicker Heroes website.
Developed by Playsaurus, Clicker Heroes is a casual, indie, RPG, adventure-style game, which has been rated one of the top free games on Steam, with an impressive 90% positive rating and just under 27,000 comments. It is also completely ad free! It is a popular game, guys. In Clicker Heroes, you simply click these silly, adorable monsters to kill them, collect their gold, buy new adventurers, and level them up with the gold that you earn. That’s it. It sounds horribly stupid, but it isn’t. The monsters don’t even fight back you guys. You just click. And click. And click. You actually DON’T even need to click if you don’t want to, or if you want to let the game run overnight, as you have base damage that does damage over time automatically, as well as your click damage, which does significantly more. The higher the level of your heroes, and the more abilities that you unlock, the more damage that you do, and the quicker you kill monsters to get all the shiny, shiny gold.
I haven’t closed this game since I downloaded it, you guys. Five days ago. It is running in a window next to this one as I type, with my cursor on the game so I can collect gold. I have a problem.
Every 5 levels you get to fight a big boss, with obscene amounts of health, and they get more and more challenging as you progress. As you level your heroes, and unlock all of their abilities, you will get even more special abilities, with various cooldowns, which are essential for killing the bosses later on. You also earn achievements for a variety of different milestones, such as killing a certain number of monsters, collecting a certain number of gold, or clicking so many times. Once you reach a certain point, you can also create your own nickname and join a clan to participate in daily Titan raids (no idea what that is yet) with other players to earn rewards. You can create your own clan for 50 gems, which can be obtained by clicking this silly goldfish that occasionally pops up on the screen, or you can search for a clan that already exists. Unfortunately, and I’m not sure if this is just for me or not, the button for finding a random clan in the downloaded game seems to be broken, and gives me an error every time I try to search. Boo!
I’m no pro, and I’m still learning as I play, but I’ve already gotten through the first 100 levels (which you get a cool reward for), and have a total of 24 heroes under my belt, all of which are over level 100 except for two. I feel like I would be further, but I keep getting distracted by, you know, life and whatnot. There are quite a few walkthrough and playthrough videos on YouTube, but I have been avoiding them, as I want to get a feel for this game on my own.
It is so addicting, you guys. Did I already mention that?
For anyone looking for a fun, free, addicting, silly game to destroy your life, and slowly suck out your soul, I highly recommend Clicker Heroes.
I give it a 9/10 (fix the damn clans!).
Now, if you’ll excuse me… I need to go click some more.
Thank for reading, friends!
Hello, friends! I’m sorry that I haven’t been posting that much lately, I blame it on the really horrible Daily Post prompts that have been giving me zero inspiration lately, as well as my very clingy little guy, who has been teething and not doing well with it, and finally, a bit of depression from the weather, that leaves me unable to do much of anything. So, sorry about that. But aside from those things, I also recently dusted off my old Steam account, and have been playing a couple of free games, because I’m too poor for the ones that cost money! Since letting my World of Warcraft account run out, I haven’t done much in terms of gaming, and my lack of money doesn’t help much either. I thought I’d take a minute to tell you about some of the games I’ve been playing recently (all free-ish), since my kiddo is asleep and I am actually able to get to my computer for a minute or two! Let’s do it!
First up is the game Emily Is Away, an interactive story game, which I had seen several YouTubers play, and thought it looked interesting. Emily is Away is a very simple, short game, about the developing friendship/relationship between friends, you and Emily, told through an old school AIM chat screen. You play the friend, and get to choose your screen name, as well as the ability to change your AIM icon each year. There are 5 chapters, which take place during their senior year in high school, and then each following year at college. You are given 3 options for steering conversation, which affects the outcome of the story, which means there are multiple endings that you can have. I had a lot of fun playing this game, even though the story was infuriatingly relatable at times, and made me feel all sorts of nostalgic feels from my time as a confused, hormonal teenager. There really isn’t much else to say, but I highly recommend it! Good game!
And now we come to my secret addiction: hidden object games. I’ve spent more money than I’d care to admit on hidden object games at Walmart, only to completely beat them within 24-48 hours. I found a handful of decent hidden object games on Steam, starting with this one. I give you, Lost Lands. The reviews were pretty mixed on Steam, but for a free hidden obeject game, I can’t complain too much. This game is beautiful, and addicting, but it does have it’s flaws. I like that each level that you unlock has three versions for you to search in, and they seem to be random (maybe?). You have the regular mode, where it lists the objects, and you find them. Then, there is a profile mode, where you are given a shadowed profile image of the object you need to find, which gets difficult when it is a picture of a black circle, but there are half a dozen circular items on the screen. And finally, a night level, where the screen is black, and your mouth has a light around it, which you need to click and drag to find items. The click and drag is a bit clunky, which makes these levels not that fun. The items shuffle a bit each time you play a level, so they aren’t always the same, which keeps it from getting too repetitive and boring.
You are given quests by the various inhabitants of the island, and there are also random beasts you can defeat with the weapons and objects you get from levels. You can also repair random buildings and locations on the map with the items you get from the levels, which help you earn additional things, like lumber, energy, and experience for leveling. Speaking of energy, that is the biggest downfall of the game. Energy is spent each time you do a level, or open a chest to do a puzzle, and it takes a looong time to get back. Unless you buy it. That’s the catch. The game is free, but if you want to play it for longer than 15 minutes every 3 or 4 hours in a day, you need to buy energy, which can cost you real money. It is a fun game, and I recommend it, but it can be frustrating waiting for your energy to fill back up so that you can play for another 15 minutes. Still, I recommend it if you enjoy pretty hidden object games with story lines and quests.
Next up, Mystic Saga, a new hidden object game, from the creators of the Lost Lands game I just told you about. In fact, Mystic Saga is basically the same game, just… a different story. Despite being the exact same type of game, with the exact same style of play, Mystic Saga is actually much better than it’s big sister game. Energy is easier to obtain, and can be gained through completing levels quickly, which means you can play the game for longer periods of time. You can also earn energy giving items as awards from levels and defeating creatures. One thing that has been a bit frustrating is that for many of the quests, you have to collect objects from levels, which may or may not drop, to give to the merchant, or the stableman, or another character, in order to get another item from them… which may or may not drop. So you end up burning through your energy to play a level 3 or 4 times, just to trade the item to the necessary character, and then they don’t drop the item you need for the quest, and you have to do it all over again. However, one thing they did improve on was the night mode, and that you don’t have to click and drag the light anymore, it just goes with your mouse.
Overall, like Lost Lands, this game is beautiful, and is a good time waster. It has some interesting story lines, and fun quests, and I recommend Mystic Saga. The creators of both of these games also have several other games, which look pretty cool, but cost money. So you should look into those as well if you have a steady source of income, unlike me!
And finally, Mystic Destinies: Serendipity of Aeons, a brand new visual novel game. I really wanted to like this game, but unfortunately, there isn’t much of it to play at this point. The game only came out in February, and after you finish the first chapter, which is free, you have to buy whatever other content is out at this point, which was disappointing, as I finished the first chapter in around 30 minutes. You play a first year college student, whose name you get to choose, who goes through some pretty crazy stuff, and ends up getting magical powers. She handles it all much better than I would have. Her school suddenly turns into a school of magic, possibly in a different realm, and you meet a handful of attractive guys who help her with various things. At least, I think they do, since I wasn’t able to play anything after the first chapter. You also have the option of playing the story lines of each of the guys in the game, which I didn’t do, mainly because I was too frustrated to continue… I think that part is free, but I don’t actually know. Sorry.
I thought that this game was going to be similar to Emily Is Away, in that you get to choose your path and outcome, but there was none of that in the first chapter of the game, so I have no idea. The story is interesting, and draws you in, making you want to spend money to play more after just a very short time. Well, we can’t all do that, so it was a bit disappointing. The graphics are cute if you like the anime style games, and it is all shiny and new. I wish there was more free content available for download, but alas, there really isn’t. If you have money to spend, I suppose I recommend the game anyway. Let me know how the other chapters go, since I doubt I’ll ever get to play them!
That’s really it! The hidden object games are my current go-to when I need to kill a little time, or just take a breather from my fussy child. Do any of you have any recommendations for free Steam games that you enjoy? I like simulation games, sandbox games, and hidden object games. Pretty casual, since I don’t have a lot of time to invest in them.
Thanks for reading, friends!
This post is long. Very long. And sad. Apologies.
I’ve wanted to write this post for a long time, but even now, I have no idea what I want to say. I don’t want to stir anything up, or hurt anyone’s feelings… that is not my intention at all. I get asked all the time when I will be coming back to play WoW, and honestly, I don’t know if I ever will. That isn’t to say that I don’t want to… I just don’t know if I will or not. It is complicated, for so many reasons. And I really don’t know where to start, so excuse my rambling.
Dramatic story time.
Leaving WoW has been very personal for me. While a lot of people chose to leave because of content, or lack there of, I chose to leave for other reasons. I was fine with the content. I do mundane and repetitive well. What I was not fine with, was how the game made me feel, specifically, how it made me feel about myself.
I used to be someone. I used to matter to people. I used to have friends. I’ve been playing WoW since I was 14 years old, and I always had a group of friends to play with. In high school, when I started playing, it was my best friends who got me into the game that I always played with. But within just a few years, we went from sharing accounts, to getting our own accounts, to getting into our own guilds and raiding without one another… but even as we grew apart, I always had new friends in my life to fall back on, even if it was just through a computer screen. I always had someone.
I don’t feel like that anymore.
I’m a long-term kind of person, I guess. The very first guild I ever found myself in was called Defiance. It was a Horde guild on Dethecus. I think they’re still around. I was 14 years old, and this was over 10 years ago, but I can still remember my guildmates’ names. I’m also still friends with a chunk of them on Facebook and talk to them regularly. I remember my GM’s name, and I remember both of his sons. I even remember when his oldest son came out as gay to me, the first person he ever told. I remember my Shaman class officer, and how he and the GM always took good luck bong hits before boss pulls in Molten Core 40. I remember all the gossip. I remember falling in love with a boy, who I dated online for a year and a half, and then traveled to Missouri to meet, and later to Canada to go to school with. I remember everything. I was in that guild for 4 years, before the guild started to fall apart, which was right around the time I was leaving for college. I started playing much less frequently, and lost contact with a lot of good friends.
When I started playing regularly again, about half a year later, I decided to start fresh with a large group of friends as Alliance on Dark Iron. Our guild was called Eternal Fate, and I have some really great memories from there, as well as many friends whom I still talk to. Unfortunately, my relationship and my college life fell apart shortly after my first year in college, and I moved in with that same friend, who then became my boyfriend. He was very competitive, and pretty elitist. I was never as “hardcore” as him, and it made me feel bad whenever we raided or played together, because I wasn’t good enough. So we decided to go our separate ways within the game, which ended up working out. I casually played with this group of friends for a long time, farming mats and gold, helping out raids when I was needed, but it never felt like I belonged. In real life, these people were my friends, and we clicked so well… but in the game, I dragged everyone down, and wasn’t taken seriously. So I left.
I spent some time on Zul’jin, playing as Alliance with a nice group of friends that I had met on Twitter. I got to see a bit more raiding, but the play was a bit too casual for my liking, as I had developed the taste for progression after playing with my last group of friends.
By this time, I had started my podcast journey, which some of you are familiar with. Something Suggestive was just a few months old when I made my way over to Zul’jin, and people were starting to notice me. I gained a bit of popularity on Twitter, booked a few guests on my show, and played the role of guest and guest co-host on several other, larger podcasts. Things felt amazing, and for the first time in a long time, I felt like I had friends and belonged somewhere. I transferred my main character, a priest, to Kul Tiras, to play with some fellow podcasters, and left my hunter on Zul’jin where I played her just a little while more before abandoning her, and my old guild.
Kul Tiras is where everything changed, and for the sake of the community, I won’t be naming names, or guilds… but things got bad. I started raiding immediately with a guild that I loved, and people that were even better. I was getting gear, improving my skills as a shadow priest, and making friends. It was great. I moved up through the ranks in the guild, eventually becoming an officer and a huge voice within my raid team. My show was gaining popularity, I was making friends, I was getting gear. Things were great.
And then they weren’t.
My GM and I got into a random, heated debate on Twitter, that all started from a stupid joke. It spun out of control, causing a lot of tension between myself and the GM, as well as the friends I had made within the guild. Two days later, I received an email from my GM telling me that I was being stripped of my officer rank in the guild, and was being put on probation, despite the fact that I had done nothing wrong. In the middle of the day, with a hundred guild mates online, I was demoted. I noticed that people were treating me differently after that. I was being ignored, and not getting invited to raids, despite still being a core member, and good raider. I also noticed that almost all of my “friends” from the guild had unfollowed me on Twitter, and that Ventrilo would get quiet when I joined.
Around this time, my GM’s podcast soared in popularity, as did our guild. The numbers grew fast, and there was a lot changing within the guild. I kept my head down, stopped talking in guild chat, and farmed mats to help the raid, which I was no longer getting invites to. And then I saw other people, new members, being made into officers. And I quit.
In the days that followed, I would read subtweets that I knew were about me. I lost nearly 60 followers within 48 hours, and people started leaving anonymous, horrible comments and reviews on my website and my podcast’s iTunes page. I later found out who was behind all of it, and that they had been saying very unkind things about me, for no reason, despite our past friendship.
I packed up all of my characters, and transferred them to Earthen Ring, where I joined the AIE guild. Best decision I could have ever made. Though I was only there for a few months before my entire world started to fall apart, it was some of the best times in-game that I had experienced in years. I made some amazing new friends, joined an kick ass raid team, and found my voice and my confidence again.
Unfortunately, that ended as well. Incoming real life shit.
A few months after joining AIE, my 4-year relationship came to an end. I was broken up with two days after Valentine’s Day, completely out of the blue, and kicked out of the home that I shared with my ex and our roommate shortly after. The next few YEARS were absolute chaos.
I no longer had internet. Within TWO YEARS I moved 4 times between shitty apartments, and changed jobs twice. I had been fired from my job just as I was being kicked out of my ex’s house, and things were only getting worse.
But I did have Kyle. Kyle and I met at the job that I had been fired from. We talked every now and then, but our friendship didn’t really happen until he quit, preparing to move away. After my break up, we started hanging out, and eventually started dating. Blah blah blah, skip to the present.
We have been together for two and a half years. We moved away from that town filled with shitty memories, and now live together with our amazing 7-month old son. Yes, a lot did happen between then and now, but this post isn’t about that. It is about my return to World of Warcraft.
A month before my son was born, we finally got internet. We were both working full-time, and could easily afford it. The day it was installed, I put WoW back on my computer, and jumped back into the game. My two main characters had been removed from AIE, but were back in within a few days. I also transferred my shaman from Dethecus, who had been untouched for years, and leveled her to 90. Unfortunately, my graphics card was shot, which made raiding, even on the lowest graphics settings, completely impossible. I had two years worth of content to catch up on (goodbye farm, hello garrison!), and spent the majority of my time leveling my characters, skills, and garrison. It was fun, until it wasn’t.
I caught up with some old friends, and started to feel like my old self again, until the realization that they had all moved on to bigger and better things set in. They were all raid leaders, big name podcasters, etc., and I was just the old friend who needed up play catch-up. It hurt. I don’t know why I thought that I would just jump back into the game and that everything would be the same as it was before… but it definitely wasn’t. It felt like everyone was too busy for me. I’m sorry if that hurts anyone, but honestly, that’s how it feels.
But then my son was born, and I had ZERO time to play the game anyway. I ended up having to quit my job, and even with all my extra free time, I still couldn’t find the time to log in and get anything done. I sat at my computer, with a baby on my chest, and leveled my battle pets. That’s it. That’s all I could do.
Eventually, I ran out of money, and my game time ran out as well. I had been trying to farm gold to keep my account active, but when you can only play for an hour or two a day, it is hard to get anything to sell. So I let my time run out. It hurts, being gone for so long, and being so excited to come back, just to have it be completely different. To have your friends all move on to bigger and better things.
To be replaced, and feel like maybe you never meant anything to anyone in the first place.
So, that’s why I don’t play anymore. I treated the game like it was real life, and put too much of my heart into it, as opposed to treating it like a game, and it ended up just hurting me in the end. Just like it has in the past.
I lost my most of my WoW friends, I lost my podcast listeners, I lost my Twitter followers. None of this has helped with my postpartum depression. I’ve been a total mess for months and months.
Once you stop being of use to people, you are forgotten, I suppose.
But hey, at least I have a cute kid, and some great stories… right?
But hey, thanks for reading and being there, for those of you who are still here. Sorry for being so depressing.
Hello, friends! As many of you already know, I have been taking an extended break from World of Warcraft for quite some time now. I was really excited to get back into playing after having to wait 2 loooong years to get my internet back, but when I was finally able to log back in, things weren’t as great as I had hoped. This, coupled with the demands of being the stay-at-home parent of a very demanding infant, brought me to the decision to continue my break from the game. But don’t fret! I may be back. Some day. Maybe.
So, some of you may be wondering what I have been up to, right? Well, when I’m not binge-watching show after show on Netflix, enjoying a marathon of my favorite YouTubers, or rolling around on the floor with my rowdy 7-month old son, I am usually playing The Sims 3. I love The Sims! I’ve been playing the various Sims games since I was little, and I’ve been playing The Sims 3 for… well, basically since the beginning.
I have most of the major expansions for the game, and have collected quite a bit of goodies from The Exchange, as well as the online store, in my many years of playing this game. I wish I could say that I owned more of the seriously awesome bundle packs and worlds from the store (Midight Hollow, Dragon Valley, and Lunar Lakes specifically), but honestly, I’ve spent a lot of money on this game already, and don’t intend to buy any new content for a bit… unless someone wants to be really awesome give me access to their Origin/Sims 3 account and let me download your stuff? Yeah, thought not. I haven’t spent nearly as much on The Sims 3 as I have on World of Warcraft (thousands of dollars over the course of 9 years)… but definitely a nice chunk of change. It makes my wallet very, very sad.
Lately, I’ve been playing around a lot more with scenarios and stories involving the Supernatural and the Into the Future expansions. I also toyed around a bit with the University Life expansion and found it fun. I love the Supernatural expansion the most, for obvious reasons. Witches, vampires, werewolves, zombies, faeries… what’s not to love? I would have to say that my favorite Supernatural characters to play would be witches. As you level your magic skills, you can do things like conjuring poison apples, blasting things with ice or fire, casting some neat curses and charms on Sims, and eventually… raising zombies. Pretty cool, right? It also comes with new skills, such as alchemy, which are really fun as well.
I should preface the following by telling you that I’ve always been really awful when it comes to using cheats in The Sims 3… if the cheat exists, I’ve probably used it at least once… if not 1,000 times. But as many of you know, when you enable and use cheats in the game, you have a much higher chance of corrupt save files, glitches within the game, and your game unexpectedly closing. All of which really suck when you’ve been spending an hour or more building a mansion and never took the time to save. Believe me, it’s happened to me many, MANY times. After losing and breaking games that I had put so many hours into, I finally decided to start a game using no cheats… except for teleporting. Sometimes. It’s kind of a must have for me, haha. I’ve actually been having a lot of fun! In the very beginning, I enabled the roommates option, which you can get in the University Life expansion, to help with living expenses and cleaning while I focused on making my Sim be the best she can be.
My “main” Sim (pictured above) is a badass redhead with dreadlocks and freckles, as well as a love for books, candles, and alchemy. She is also a witch. My Sim has never had a job. Instead, she busted her butt learning alchemy, and became a self-employed alchemist, selling her potions (and extra bits) at the consignment store. I had her complete the chain of events so that she could go to the future, where she obtained winning lottery numbers, and won the lottery. Twice. I went from having almost nothing, to having 1.6 million Simoleons. I built her a massive mansion, and created a few more supernatural roommates for her (I created and placed them randomly in town, then asked them to be my roommates manually so that I wouldn’t have to add them and control them myself).
My witch now has a few million Simoleons, a mansion with a huge garden and cemetery (with wandering ghosts), 3 other supernatural roommates (another witch, a faerie, and a vampire), and 2 dogs. She has max skill in alchemy, magic, gardening, and cooking… those were really the only ones I was concerned with. When she isn’t training her dogs to sniff out valuable collectibles, throwing potions at unsuspecting Sims, and transforming people into toads, she also enjoys walking around her massive plot of land in sexy lingerie. I mean, honestly, who doesn’t though?
Started from the bottom, now we’re here!
I’ve been having a lot of fun not using cheats. I thought it was going to be a boring drag, but it has been the exact opposite. I enjoy the challenge of not using cheats, not to mention my game runs smoother, and I haven’t had any crashing or buggy issues since I started. You may have noticed that I also play with my graphics ALL the way down… well, that is not by choice. I received this computer 3 years ago from a dear friend after he upgraded, and it isn’t holding up so well these days. All of my drivers are painfully out-0f-date, especially my video driver. So out-of-date, that no updates are even available for my model anymore. Ouch. This is also one of the several reasons I stepped away from World of Warcraft.
So I play The Sims 3 on the lowest settings. It’s not so bad though! It’s been a fun way too kill time when my kiddo is taking naps, or when I’m the last one to go to bed in my house at night. Even if my Sims always look smudgy and pixelated… and gross.
Do any of you guys play any of The Sims games? What are your favorite expansions? Do you ever trap and kill people just for fun? Have you upgraded to The Sims 4? I want to know!
Thanks for reading!
When I decided to start this blog, I thought it would be simple to find time to write, but it has been a challenge. Besides caring for my little one, all I do at home all day is play WoW or the Sims (although I did just pick up crocheting recently), so you would think I’d have something to write about, right? Nope. Not really. Despite the fact that I spend the majority of my day at my computer, I feel like I’m barely playing the game, not doing anything… not doing anything with writing about really. But hey, maybe someone out there will find this interesting!
I would say that a good chunk of my time spent on WoW lately has been time playing my Shaman, which has quickly become one of my favorite classes again. I’ll always be a Hunter at heart, but she’s just SO fun. For those of you who missed my previous post, I recently transferred my very first main, a Troll Shaman named Zuljinn, from the Dethecus server to Earthen Ring. I’ve been doing this for years, but always decided against it. I enjoyed the idea of having that one character, completely original and frozen in time where I left her… but on the other hand, she was my main for nearly five years. I spent A LOT of time (and money) playing her. I have so many incredibly fond memories of my time playing her. So… I decided to take her out of retirement.
Meet Zuljan, level 100 Troll Shaman! I hit level 100 on her last week after using my character boost to go from 70-90, and decided to try out playing as Elemental, since she was always Resto/Enhancement. It’s very different from playing my Hunter, for example, my Shaman dies. MY HUNTER NEVER DIES. Maybe I just suck? Combat on her is a lot more fun though, more buttons to press, more cooldowns to manage… my adorable elementals. Fun!
Her item level is hovering in the very low 600’s, since I hit 100 in Spires of Arak, and not Nagrand, so I missed out on some of the higher level quest rewards. She does have several pieces of crafted gear though, so that’s something! Unfortunately, between her low item level and my lack of skill, it has been very hard to do my Apexis dailies. And complete the damn Silver Proving Grounds… so no heroics either. A lot of focus on my garrison, as well as quest achievements in Draenor. It’s been a lot of fun!
I feel like I’ve completely lost interest in my Hunter since transferring my Shaman. Since I’m no longer able to raid, and all my WoW friends are… nonexistent, the only thing really for me anymore is leveling alts, farming mats, pet battling… actually, yeah, that’s pretty much all I do on my Hunter. Pet battles, farming for garrison crap… boooring.
The good news is, after hardly touching her for two and a half years, I’ve decided to finally start playing my Priest again! She will remain as shadow (healing is gross), and after playing her for just a few minutes today, I was pleased to see that shadow spec hasn’t changed at all. I miss my Priest, she was my main for a long time before I became addicted to being a Hunter. I’m not alone in this, have you SEEN how many Hunters are out there these days?
I suppose that’s it for now! I hope you enjoyed this long-winded description on what I’ve been up to this past week… it took me nearly a week to write it. In fact, I’m finishing it up from my couch, while trapped under a sleeping two month old, watching Bones… ah, this is the life… Thank you for reading, friends!
I was without internet for two years. Two. Long. Years. To some, this doesn’t seem like a big deal, but when all of your hobbies, friends, and the majority of your life exist solely on the internet, suddenly being without it is somewhat devastating. I really don’t care if you find that pathetic, that’s just how my life was.
After my ex of four years and I parted ways, I was broken, and broke. Even working full-time at my job at the time, I could barely afford rent and bills on my own, let alone luxuries. I felt completely cut off. During those two years, I was also without a phone, so I had zero contact with my friends or family. Or work. It was awful. But I’m back now. As great as it is having the internet back (I missed you, Netflix!), I feel like the last couple months have been a horrible game of trying to catch up with the world… movies, music, TV, games. I’d been so out of the loop for all long that it’s almost overwhelming now that I’m back.
Listen to me, sounding like I was held captive in a bunker or something for 15 years. Ugh. This is a little pathetic.
Anyway, I got my internet back a few weeks before my son was born in January. I decided that if I didn’t have SOMETHING to keep me sane during my maternity leave, even if it was just Netflix, I would snap. Besides, my fiance and I were both making more than enough to make ends meet, so why not? Despite my excitement, I told myself I wasn’t going to jump into my old online life, not that I didn’t want to, I just couldn’t. Everything was different. My old friends had moved on from me. My podcast was old news. No one knew who I was anymore. I felt replaced and depressed. There could be no big comeback. What was I even coming back to? I was never really a somebody, but more than ever, I felt like a nobody.
Despite my better judgement, I reinstalled WoW on my computer and reactivated my account. I guess deep down I knew I would. I decided to lay low. I had missed out on a good chunk Mists of Pandaria, as well as the launch of Warlords of Draenor, and everything felt overwhelming. There were people bragging about their 4th or 5th level 100, and their level 3 garrisons, and raiding whatever they were raiding… and here I was, logging in and standing in the middle of my FARM. Everything in my bags and bank, everything I was farming when before I was forced to quit, now completely useless.
On top of that, there are new games? Hearthstone? Heroes of the Storm? WTF is that?
Class changes, mounts and battle pets, raids. So much to learn. I rejoined good old AIE on my hunter, whom I had resumed playing as my main, but let my priest stand idly by. She’s still only level 90, despite the fact that my hunter has been 100 for over a month. I also recently transferred my level 70 shaman to Earthen Ring and began playing her again after five years of letting her sit unused on my old, old, OLD server. My first server. She was my first main. She is now level 98 and I’m having SO much fun playing her as elemental.
Balancing gaming and a newborn has been tough. I already knew raiding was completely off the table for me, but I’ve been surprised at just how little I’ve been able to do while home alone with my son. No PvP, no raiding, no instances at all… at least, I can’t do any of those things WELL. I spend the majority of my time in WoW doing activities that don’t require me to play with both hands, e.g. maxing Archaeology and fishing, doing my Apexis dailies, putting together killer transmog sets, farming mats, farming raid pets, etc. Even still, with him being a little over two months old, it’s been difficult to find things I can do to keep me interested in the game with him in my lap.
Thank god LFR is such a breeze that I can do it with one hand on my hunter. She actually has a pretty respectable gear score, for being on a raid team.
And please, don’t even get me started on rebooting Something Suggestive (for those of you who didn’t know me before this year, I ran a podcast for a while). Sorry to disappoint… whoever is even left to be disappointed, but it’s not going to happen. My podcast is dead. Sorry.
So, as glad as I am to be back, it has been hard for me as well. I’m enjoying myself and adjusting pretty well, but I still get overwhelmed and upset from time to time. But I guess I have plenty of time to play now that I’m a SAHM, right? I’ve also met a lot of really great people lately who have helped me more than they know. So thanks, new friends!
Woah. This post was much more depressing than intended… sorry. Thanks for reading! More to come later.