Dream Journal 3/9/16

I was with a group of 6 or 7 people, all armed to the teeth with weapons, making our way through a thick forest toward a huge mansion in the distance. There were zombies closing in all around us. Once in front of the mansion, there was one zombie standing at the top of the steps by the front door, but she was different than the rest of the other zombies. She stood perfectly still and stared at us with creepy, white eyes. One of the girls in our group locked eyes with her, and the zombie’s face morphed into a zombified version of the girl from the group, and her eyes turned to a solid, creamy blue color. Suddenly, all of the zombies around us stopped moving, their eyes turned the same color blue, and they just stood there, swaying.

We took this opportunity to run into the mansion. Once inside, we barricaded the door, and the group immediately relaxed. The group, which had been 6 or 7 people, now had about 20 people in it, including popular YouTuber Markiplier, and we all separated to explore the mansion. The lights were on, and the mansion was very clean, as if the zombie apocalypse had never happened. I went upstairs with another girl from the group, and we raided a giant, walk-in closet in one of the bedrooms. I found a really cute bathing suit in my size, and put it on.

Connected to the bedroom was a huge bathroom with a walk-in bathtub. I filled the tub all the way to the top, and sat in it. Mark came in and pointed out the window, and asked if I had seen the weird zombie with the blue eyes. I looked outside and she was now out on the lawn, staring up at the window. I shuddered and looked away. Mark told me that he had asked out another girl in the group, but she said no, and I hugged him and asked if he wanted to get in the tub with me. He said yes, and jumped over the side and into the tub, which was now a much larger hot tub.

He looked out the window again, and the zombie was right outside the window, and we were suddenly on the ground floor. Mark locked eyes with her, her face turned into a ccreepy version of his, and her eyes turned to a muddle brown color. She began crying loudly. All of the zombies on the lawn began crying loudly as well, and Mark jumped out of the tub and ran from the room. I stayed in the tub, and just looked away from the window.

Several minutes passed, and I heard someone scream. I ran into the bedroom, where the girl I was with before was fighting off a zombie. I shoved it off of her and stabbed it in the head, then pulled her to her feet. I looked out into the hallway and noticed that all of the lights were off in the mansion. I asked her where everyone else was, and she shrugged. We walked into the hallway, where we were greeted by  a horde of zombies roaming the main floor. We silently made out way to the library, but we didn’t come across any of our people. The lights were still on in the library, and among the zombies were half a dozen human maids and butlers, cleaning, seemingly unaware that they were surrounded by zombies. We killed out way to them, and got them out into the main lobby, where our people were bus clearing out the zombies.

Once we met up with them, we fought our way back outside to the front lawn, where the hypnotic zombie was waiting. One of the guys in our group charged her, but before he got to her, their eyes locked, her face turned into his, her eyes turned red, and she viciously attacked him, tearing him apart. Blood and gore flew everywhere. She snapped her head up and looked at us, blood dripping from her mouth. She made a loud roaring sound, and we split up and ran for our lives.

That is the last thing I remember.
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[A little bit of back story for this next dream bit. In most of my dreams where I am running, I forget how to run, and it ends up being a weird skipping run, and I get angry. I can not run in my dreams for some reason.]

I was back in my hometown, and I was walking through the playground at the elementary school. There was a group of young teenagers goofing off near me, and I was trying to ignore them as I stretched. I was wearing workout clothes, and started walking briskly toward the baseball field at the end of the playground. I started jogging, and decided not to go any faster, because I was amazing that I was successfully jogging, and not limping/hopping/skipping instead. I started crying as I jogged around the field.

That is all I remember before I woke up.

15 (More) Facts About Me!

Hello, friends! I had so much fun thinking of random facts about myself on Twitter (if you don’t know what I’m talking about, click here to read my previous post), that I decided to write a second post with more fun facts! The tweet that I posted on Twitter got a grand total of 23 likes! I wrote out 15 facts in the last post, so I’ll be writing about the 8 facts that I put up on Twitter, as well as 7 bonus facts!

Not that I am important, or interesting… but this is really fun for me. I had to really think about myself to come up with things to list, haha. So here we go!

Jan Fact #16: I desperately need to have a yard sale.
I have been meaning to do a yard sale for the last 2 years, but kept putting it off. Now it is winter again, so I have to wait until spring. I have so much crap! We have two massive boxes of misc. decor and clothes just sitting in Kyle’s mom’s garage, and now we have four trash bags of JUST baby clothes, some more adult clothes, and some other baby items to sell. So. Much. Stuff.

Jan Fact #17: I love Spelunker World.
We recently got a PS4, but the only game I’ve been playing on it is Spelunker World, which is super fun. We have other games, like GTA V, NBA 2k16, COD: AW, and a few others… but Kyle mostly plays those. I make sure to log in daily to get my rewards, but I only get to play for a little bit each day, usually during nap time. It is addicting though. And so infuriating. It is free, so if you have a PS4 (I dunno if it is available for PS3 or not), you should play it. You can play online with other people, too… but they are mostly 10 year olds. So, yeah.

Jan Fact #18: I’m openly Pansexual.
I’ve known that I was bisexual since I was 12 years old, and came out at 13 to my mom. The only thing she had to say was, “Gross.” but it never came up after that. She and I never talked about relationships and such anyway, so it was fine. I never really came out to people, I just lived out. I was always open about my sexuality. Luckily, I lived in a town that was pretty accepting of people. If I liked a girl, I told her. If someone asked if I liked girls, I was honest. Last year, I was told to look up the term “pansexual”, as my friend wanted to know if I could relate. I did. And shortly after realizing that this term described me, I came out on Twitter.

Jan Fact #19: My favorite color is green!
All the lovely shades of green. Green is such a happy color.

Jan Fact #20: I have siblings. Kind of.
I am my mother’s only child, but have an assortment of step/half siblings in my life. I’m not in contact with any of them. I have an older half-brother (26) named Dustin, who has two sons named Phoenix (2) and Ryker (1). I also have two younger half-sisters (11 and 4) named Desiree and Makaela. Although my mom never married her boyfriend, they have been together for 16 or 17 years (or more), and I consider his son, Lawrence (25) to be my step-brother.
Here is where things get complicated. Desiree and Makaela are my dad’s daughters, making them my half-sisters, but they were taken away from him and his girlfriend, Anthena. Desiree was taken away, along with Anthena’s other two daughters, whose names USED to be Miranda and Brianna. All 3 girls were adopted by a woman named Amy, and her husband, Sean. In the adoption, the two older girls changed their names to Jayla and Jamie, respectively. I consider both of these girls, now 19 and 17, to be my sisters, although I haven’t seen them in years.
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This picture was taken in 2008, the last time I saw the girls. This was at Desiree’s 4th birthday, a few weeks before I left for college. That is my grandmother. We won’t talk about her, but she is the main reason I haven’t seen the girls. I went back to Maine a few years ago, and had planned to see them, but she told me that Desiree wouldn’t understand who I was, despite being 8 years old. She said she didn’t understand adoption, or something, and it would confuse her. Yet, my grandmother was able to see her with no issue… whatever. So, yeah. I don’t talk to any of my family.

Jan Fact #21: I almost never wear matching socks.
I don’t know why. I don’t do it to be “cool”, or whatever. I think I am just too lazy to match them up. I wore matching socks yesterday though, and it felt weird.

Jan Fact #22: I refuse to wear pajama pants outside.
I don’t know if it is because I feel self-conscious, or if I just don’t like looking like a total bum, but I honestly don’t know if I ever have worn pajama pants outdoors. Certainly never to the store, or any other destination. Only yoga pants or jeans (maaaybe a skirt) for this girl.

Jan Fact #23: Liam was planned.
Despite what people seem to think, Liam was a planned baby. We never TRIED to have a baby (as in, we didn’t worry about positions, and ovulation, etc.), but we stopped trying to prevent one. When we started this journey, we were financially stable, and things were great. It wasn’t until after I got pregnant that everything went to hell, and we ran into money problems. So when people say things like, “Don’t have a kid if you can’t afford one.” it makes me want to scream. You don’t know what will happen. You just don’t. So shut up. It took over 10 months to get pregnant. According to my doctor, he was conceived on my birthday… haha. Best decision I’ve ever made.

*BONUS*
Jan Fact #24: I’ve always felt weird calling myself a “gamer”.
I love games. I love playing games. However, I don’t really play them anymore. I grew up with my N64 (which I still have), my XBox, and my PS2/3, and played a whole assortment of things on them… but, I don’t know. I feel like, for some reason, when I think of the term “gamer”, I think of games like Call of Duty, Halo, and such. I preferred games like The Sims, DDR, and Legend of Zelda. It is silly, I know. Gamers play games. All sorts of games. And those ARE games! I mean, I played World of Warcraft for 10 years, but even then, I didn’t feel like a gamer. And now, I get all of my enjoyment from watching other people (like Markiplier, Jacksepticeye, PewDiePie, and others) play games that I wish I could play. Meh.

Jan Fact #25: I love spicy food.
I have memories of my grandmother giving me jalapeno peppers off of her sub whenever she got Subway when I was really little, and now I love them. I add Tabasco sauce or Sriracha to everything I eat. Pasta, rice, soup, vegetables… I love it. Pepperjack is my favorite cheese. I need my salsa super hot. The Diablo and Ghost Pepper sauces at Taco Bell are a complete joke and are not hot!

Jan Fact #26: I love pickles.
I think it is the salt. I love dill pickles (get out of here with your nasty sweet pickles). I also love olives! All olives. When I was pregnant, and still working at Target, I used to buy jars of baby pickles and eat almost a whole jar on my lunch break… and it wasn’t because I was pregnant. I just used that as an excuse.

Jan Fact #27: I am an Atheist.
I don’t care what religion you practice, I really don’t. I won’t judge you, unless you are hurting people. Respect my (lack of) belief, and I will respect yours. I have my reasons for not believing in a deity, and you have your reasons for your beliefs. Do not try to convince or convert me. Do not get into a debate with me, or insult me. I’ve heard it all, and I don’t care. 🙂

Jan Fact #28: I want a daughter.
If my next child is a boy, I won’t be upset, but I might be a bit sad. We agreed to stop at two kids (we’ll see…), but I want three. I would love to have a daughter.

Jan Fact #29: I am secretly sort of girly.
My mouse is a very colorful owl, and my mouse pad is teal/white chevron. My wardrobe contains mostly black, but I do love color. I like boots, makeup, scarves,and jewelry… I’m just too broke/scared to wear any of it. Shh.

Jan Fact #30: I love tattoos and piercings.
I really, really do. I’ve had my ears pierced since I was an infant, and got my eyebrow pierced when I was 15. I had to take my eyebrow ring out a year later, due to infection, but re-pierced it when I was 19, and took it out just this year, due to grabby baby hands. Kyle and I both have several tattoos planned out, but no funds to get them. I also would like to get a few more piercings, once Liam is out of his grabby stage. I am very vanilla on the outside.

So, there you go! Hope you enjoyed learning a little bit more about me. I am pretty open and honest about all aspects of my life, so if you ever want to ask me something, or talk about anything, please feel free!

Thanks for reading, friends!

Jan